It doesn't matter. Yes it does.

I'm upset right now. Pretty damn upset. My forehead should be full of popped up veins if I have to feel this way everyday. We can never compromise. I believe I've done enough, tried enough, changed enough, for you. All I want is to be treated the same way. Or if not, at least give me what I deserve. I don't deserve to be disappointed like this, I don't deserve to be ignored like this. I don't deserve any of these treatments.

It makes me wonder what happened to the effort that I've put in. You see them, you see them, I know. But so what happens after you seeing them? Nothing? They say love doesn't require any form of return from the other party. Not true for me. I put in all the effort because I want this to work out, I want this relationship to be strong. But it cannot be a one-sided effort.

Oh I know you do love me, I feel it constantly. But love to what extent? Am I the most important, or among those most important to you? If so, why am I being ignored? Why am I always put behind others? Why do you not treat me the way you treat those whom I think are important to you?

What am I to you?